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Nothing to say , really.... [Aug. 20th, 2005|08:43 pm]
[mood | numb]
[music |Scissor Sisters on S.N.L.]

"He who asks questions is a fool.

He who answers them is a greater fool.

What is truth? What man decides it should be.

What is beauty? Beauty is in the eye of man.

What are right and wrong? Today one thing, another tommorrow.

Death only is real."~ Ruth Rendell

"The truth shall sooner come to light.....whiles he helpeth and beareth out simple wits against the false and malicious circumvention of crafty

people."~Sir Thomas More~ From the Ralph Robinson translation of " Utopia"-1551

 

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House of a thousand Cats..... [Jul. 20th, 2005|08:09 am]
[mood |Inconsolable]
[music |NONE]

Tonight started out good then turned to SHIT-Real quick......Any one that reads my journal, probably knows by now that I deeply(?)Love someone.....He Verbally( I wished he had hit me instead)Abused me tonight....It felt like I was Dealing w/ someone I didn't know......PPL. Saw this(this is how bad it was)And asked me if I wanted to have him thrown-out--Me Forever faithful, said, "No"....Leave him alone.....Honestly, I have NEVER seen him like that, He hurt me SO much w/ words-I am STILL trying to grasp what happened....My God...As Much as I love him-The things he said were devestating(again-Never seen this from him).....I am Faithful to him, Love him-Always have-HE KNOWS!!....What I do is acting-Improve-Fake....He ( I don't know why he even came out)DOSEN'T get It......I guess he sucseeded in what he planned...Fuck-the shit he called me-Whore, Floozy, Yeah I cried-(Backstage-Never let them see U cry )He is THE ONLY person that has the power to make me feel Horrible--Like I said it came outta nowhere-He Does NOT get it- I tried to tell him tonight--I only want to be w/ him....Laughs in my fucking face, he does.....Seriously, I am at my wits end-What did I ever DO SO wrong that I deserve this?....My only crime is that I love him....Now I am questioning Why I EVEN want to be w/ him.....After all is said and done He's A part of me I can't let go....Marriage-a kid,etc.WHY??!!Why do I HAVE to love him SO fucking much??....Everytime he hurts me I vow-No more-Yet- I just want to be with him-Happy...............
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Duran Duran Tonight.... [Jul. 18th, 2005|05:03 am]
[mood | depressed]
[music |who cares??]

I wished I didn't feel so Fucking depressed...WTF is WRONG w/ me??.....I would never admit to being the happiest person in the world-But- I haven't felt this bleak in a long time......Maybe it's cuz, I have NOTHING....No job, No car, The constant rollercoaster ride that is M.....Rollercoasters are fun and exciting, but if you ride more than you should-You end up feeling Sick, Tired and you want MORE than what you've been getting from it.......I am so sad I can't even cry anymore.....D.D.=Escape....Then I'll fall right back into Nothingness....
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Found at Target: Harry Potter!!!! [Jul. 17th, 2005|03:38 am]
[mood | hyper]
[music |Love, Angel, Music, Baby-Gwen Stefani]

I just happened to be there looking for other stuff, then on a shelf near the check-out( Genuis, right?!!LOL!!)....HAARRYY!!!!!....I was putting off buying it right away( no, I'm not crazy)because $30.00 bucks is alot to spend on a book seeing as I am Unemployed, Poor, etc......It was on SALE-$16.95!!!!! So of course I grabbed a copy and clutched it protectively to my breast(hahahaha, she said breast) and bought it.....You don't have to tell me twice,lol!!....Yay Tarjay!!...Type at'cha soon...Independent Bar Sun. Night: I shall be there! See some of you there, SO ;D
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I like him so much I made a Default pic of him**swoon** [Jul. 16th, 2005|01:40 am]
[mood | awake]
[music |THERAPHY by D.J. Stefan]

I just watched "Garden State"- on Max on Demand.  I have been wanting to see it for along time- It was EXCELLENT!!.....I thought the acting was wonderful( So good you forget you are watching Actors)....I thought it was Funny, touching and lovely....AND it made me cry( Def. Get's Points 4 that)...It has been awhile since I felt that way about a film....Zach Braff from "Scrubs", wrote and directed it....I have always had a crush on him ("Scrubs"), but seeing him in this film just made me crush, like, 10 times harder on him...If you haven't seen it please do......Necro-Weds. was "da bomb,like, fo shizzle(hahahaha!!)...Thanks Sean, Stefan and" the one and only", L.d.!!!...The music was great I danced alot!!!  This Tues. "PERVERSION"was  PHENOMENAL.... Seriously, we keep getting BETTER every week....Yeah, I am allowed to brag,lol!!....Awesome turn-out. kick-ass music( Thanks, Maus!! xo)BTW: Maus ENCOURAGES requests(??-Right!!)....And he seriously wants to play what u want to hear--He is there to please U, the customer...As are we the "Pink Perversion" Gurrls!!!!!....Come out if you haven't, if you have, THANK YOU-Keep coming!!!...We have MUCH more surprises on the way!!!! Type at'cha soon,XO SO
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I LOOKED INTO YOUR EYES AND MY WORLD CAME TUMBLING DOWN" [Jul. 8th, 2005|03:34 am]
[mood | lonely]
[music |Consequence-Lights Of Euphoria]

Bleh....I don't feel good.......My head hurts, my neck hurts....My right arm is ,like, one big pulled muscle.......Whipping ppl. is, Apparently, a good work out, lol!!...... Thanks  to  Everyone that came out to "Perversions" Tues......It was Phenomenal-A great success....Dare I say it was EVEN better than opening night!!!...And It will Only get better....To all My friends out there, if U haven't Come out to Perversions @ Blue Room, U REALLY should Come See and Support Us!!!....Us "Pink-Perversions" Gurrls Work hard to entertain you- So what R U waiting 4??......In Other news-I am so upset over what happened in London Thurs.....FuckingTerrorists....It's So sad AND so frustrating when shit like this happens :: sigh::....Nothing else to speak of I suppose....I've a nagging headache and I feel lonely and sad....And, of course times like this I need to be held and comforted. And hear I sit at the computer w/ no arms around me and no one whispering in my ear that they love me and everythings gonna be ok........Blah blah blah,Self pity sucks...I hate feeling like this...OHWELLWHATEVERNEVERMIND....
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wtf??! [Jul. 6th, 2005|08:10 am]
[mood | uncomfortable]
[music |COVENENT-NORTHERN LIGHTS]

I am seeing Duran Duran on the 18th......***Screams***.....Had a great time at wrk. tonight....Kiss my Icon...Can't waaaaaait too see D.D.Bloody Hell!!
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"Yes, We've GOT a VIDEO!!!" [Jul. 2nd, 2005|10:21 pm]
[mood | contemplative]
[music |The Damned on "Young Ones"- "Video Nasty"]

I am LMFAO at the moment!!...I m watching The Young Ones on the Beeb.....It's the one w/ The Damned performing on it....I love this show-Imensely...To the point where i've seen them so many times I can say the dialog right along w/ the show....Annoying to some sitting next to me-but- Bloody, Hell Ya Baahstaads!!!lol!!........Anyhoo-It is still weird to be sitting at home on a Sat.  night....*sigh*...I'm still used to working at Indy......O h Well....." Perversions", Tues. Night At Blue Room-I will be there performing-So, I expect to see all you lovlies that made Sun. a big sucess, OUT Showin" MORE love Tues!!!!...Support us-We are the best(newest-unique)  thing Orlando's had in a long time!!!...Drs:10pm, Cover 6$-Drink Specials...Oh and All of us "Pink-Perverse" Gurrls to worship!!!.. SOO... ...Be There-Or Bewhere..."

                                                                         Spanks andSpikes,

                                                                                   SO xxx

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You Know you Wanna...... [Jun. 23rd, 2005|05:33 am]
[mood | excited]
[music |Madonna-GHV-1-"Frozen"]

Hey...Everyone that misses me at I-Bar need to come to "PINK"-June 26th at Blue Room 17 W. Pine St....Bondage-Fetish=SEXY....I will Be there Dancing, So, Come show your support..IF all Goes well (Big Crowd).....We will be there every Tues. Being Naughty Just for you...Reminder: come support us Sun.- see us Every Tues!!!!--2 4 1 drinks til 11pm-doors-10pm...See You There!!!XO,SO
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To quote the Lovely Mr. Murphy..... [Jun. 22nd, 2005|03:28 am]
[mood | creative]
[music |"Strange Kind of Love"-Peter Murphy]

"A Smile from a frown circles round".......A strange kind of love, A strange kind of feeling, Swims through...Your Eyes. And Like a door to a wide vast dominion it opens to Your prize"........XXXOHXXX, ;}  SO

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Team Work..... [Jun. 20th, 2005|03:11 am]
[mood |Touched and Surprised]
[music |"HOLY"- In Strict Confidence]

Awwww, I got a neck rub 'cos I commented  how this one pain at the back of my neck just came outta nowhere...." Come Here"......Interesting....NOT that i'm complaining- i'm just pleased( ?????!!)
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Now we' getting somewhere...... [Jun. 19th, 2005|08:22 pm]
[mood | mischievous]
[music |Sunday Night Vinyl]

Martinis, Lapdancing, Serious talks, Porn and TLOML.....It doesn't get any better than that........
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The Bitch is BACK!!! [Jun. 19th, 2005|08:14 pm]
Yeah, I undeleated this LJ....After last night and all of the positive feedback and sweet words from friends and strangers(customers).......I realized I will ALWAYS be a part of I-Bar!!!....I still have bellavioletta and will be posting on both......XO SO
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(no subject) [Jun. 15th, 2005|04:13 am]
[mood | numb]
[music |THE BRAVERY-THE BRAVERY]

Bored....So I made some new Icons for my L.J.....Finally figured how-Of course Yahoo-Search for images helped...Can't sleep, anyway....
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Remember, Kids--Don't cross the street--Walk right down the middle [Jun. 14th, 2005|03:22 am]
[mood |Shock-Disbelief]
[music |Nothing]

I am Screaming inside, no one hears....I am crying on the outside, but, no one cares.........." Like Tears In Rain"...........
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My life feels like it's over...... [Jun. 13th, 2005|07:53 pm]
[mood | morose]
[music |Michael mowing the lawn]

Oh My God......Oh My God.......This didn't really happen right?...A joke-Nightmare even...Please let me wake up and it NOT be true....PLEASE!!!! FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I am Crushed--Inconsolable.......WTF am I gonna DO??!!!!
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Curious..... [Jun. 8th, 2005|04:12 am]
[mood | curious]
[music |WOLFSHIEM-"CASTING SHADOWS"]

Ok, I know this isn't earth shattering-change the world kinda shit, but, This has been bugging me ever since I saw Entertainment Tonight.....If Brad Pitt left Jennifer Anniston for Angelina Jolie What must J.A. be feeling right about now? Think about it Jennifer is Beautiful, has an incredible body-Yet still is not good enough.  Who The Fuck Could compete w/ Angelina anyway??....I mean she is, like , Insanely beautiful--Otherworldly beautiful---I don't think she's even REAL, Cos It is Impossilble for a Human Being to be THAT Perfect!!!!!!!!He hadSomeone Beautiful-Yet, STILL "traded her in for a better model"-Fuckin Guys.......Makes me wonder are all guys like that??!! I don't think they ALL are ....Hopefully just a small (Idiotic)Few......Anyways It's all "allledged"-But they R obviously Together.....Whatever...I warned you Dear reader(If U R still w/ me,LOL!!)that this isn't something I'm losing sleep over or anything, but, It just Makes Me Wonder about people.........See You Guys At Necro Tonight!!!!!
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This and That...... [Jun. 7th, 2005|02:37 am]
[mood | moody]
[music |IRIS- "UNKNOWN"]

If I could change your mind I would save you from the path you wander..............All creation has the promise of heaven-And still you travel the road to Hell. I'm saying nothing for the good of myself....But I'm still talking and you're not listening..........In the stories of the people A million faces A million lies. They'll never say they feel what you feel, That they can see the world you see. And in their faces, Their expressions, A million faces A million lies......

Had a good wknd.Work was cool both nights. Sat.Night I   Had cherished quality time w/ TLOML, Good communication....Very special.....Sat at wrk. I saw some dear friends(more like family)got to do a little catching up w/ them-Made me Very Happy!! Sun at wrk someone took my breath away w/ their intensity( WOW).... Today I just tried to relax -Do nothing...Ate ALOT of Cheesy pasta, Followed that w/ Cold stone Peanut butter Cup Perfection-W/ extra Hot fudge( Hey, Certain times of the month I surrender And just eat what my body craves-Too hard to fight, Powerless over it, Quite simply-Gurrls I know You'll Back me up on this!)Can U say runonsentence?! It was a good day spent W/ J. And M......Cramps are kicking in, time to get in bed and curl up w/ my latest book........"Theres been talk about us, Right down to knowing you're gone,,I watch you Stream across while all of their voices go on"........" I DO LOVE YOU".......Things to Remember..........

 

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Hmm...I KNEW IT!!!! [May. 23rd, 2005|05:32 am]
[mood | awake]
[music |My "Boy-Toy"Complaining in the Kitchen.....]

LiveJournal Username
Age
Favorite ice cream
Favorite season
Thinks you're ass is tight:fiendthegirl
Wants to lick hot chocolate off you're body:yvonnedekruse
Wonders how good you are in bed:aeldergoth
Wishes you would screw him/her on the spot:dante_caligari
Is romatically in love with you:sloppyjoes
Wishes you were gay so he/she could love you better:watts1987
Hopes you'll take him/her to great heights (wink wink nudge nudge):sombervalentine
Day dreams about having sex with you 24/7:edgeofentropy
This Fun Quiz created by Molly at BlogQuiz.Net
Cancer Horoscope at DailyHoroscopes.Biz

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Go for it.... [May. 21st, 2005|08:12 pm]
[mood | good]
[music |Bloodchild-Wumpscut]

So, Last weekend At I-bar I saw this guy( kinda hard to miss-he's 6'4'')I had seen there 4 a couplea wks. and thought,Hmmm?...Last Sat. I walked up to him and asked him his name-See I am like that if I like someone i'll talk to them-I'm not shy or into "games"...Anyhoo, Weds. We talk for awhile.....Thurs We went to dinner and then to Peacock Room....He is really cool...I like him-He is from Chicago-Cool Tatts-Tall-CUTE as Fuck-Great taste in music-Has a hawk-Was really sweet to me-Hung out w/ him Yest. Will see him tonight(WRK)-Btw-I asked him out..Quite simple really...lol!....T b c......
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